friends!

haha.. duno why.. i feel very unhappy some times.. =X haha.. i feel i dun have real good frens.. 没有知心朋友... i being a human for so long.. i dun think i have any very good frens.. that will understand me lorh.. haiz.. why? T_T ( lol.. duno why being emo lorh.. haha.. )

At college.. some ppl treat me like freakz nia.. = = i think they are more freak sometimes.. >.<

lol.. college.. i have no gud frens.. my college mates think im stupid and child.. i talk kinda loud.. and they think im rude mayb? lol.. and at college.. sometimes i joke to my frens.. they will think im a sohai nia.. or mayb im childish.. actually i juz trying to make them talk.. or mayb laugh.. hehe.. sometimes ppl scolds me back? haha.. thats fine.. at college.. i dun think i have much gud fren will actually understand about me/ care me.. haha.. i think no.. LOL..

Online frens.. haiz.. not much will talk with me gua.. or choi me.. and sometimes im being very impatient and very annoying to someone.. i felt it myself.. mayb is not to them.. i not sure la.. i juz feel that.. T T haha.. and sometimes i sms ppl.. some ppl dun wanna reply purposely.. haha.. so sad when ppl dun want to reply me.. and din even tell that they are busy or wat.. just no reply.. lol.. and then i sms a sms : "busy?" oni they wil reply yes.. or.. still no reply.. haha.. until whole day.. also never care about me.. haha.. this is so obviuos right? and ppl dun like sms with me mayb.. i not sure..

Girl frens?? LOL.. i wonder got ppl want me a not? i dun think so have.. even is have.. is not the one i like.. haha.. i just want a girl.. a little pretty/normal look.. and a kind hearted person.. enough man.. lol.. but no ppl.. xD even have.. they wun like me larh.. im so useless person.. nothing much let ppl like.. hehe.. very useless person.. i have nothing much good.. what im good at? not much.. haha.. i cant even think one.. lol.. so.. how could others think i have anything good? i study sucked also.. haha..besides that.. im not a nice looking person.. nowdays..many ppl see look 1st.. haha.. and i look damn childish.. if girl which is mature.. im beside.. they will think a kid is following them..haixxxx..good frens/best fren.. i dun think i have one.. since im so annoying and stupid.. no people like to follow me.. im such useless person.. no good things.. but bad things i can count myself until like cannot finish.. haha... im so bad.. =)

when my frens, which close to me.. (not that close.. online fren i think).. when they chat with other peoples and not replying me.. or late reply.. i will feel that.. im not important to the person.. haha.. because i have nth much let ppl think im important to them.. hehe.. haha.. .. xD normally im the one who find ppl.. even a boy.. kinda gd with me at 2ndary.. but.. now.. gathering also never call me.. haha.. so now i know what am i inside his heart... xD damn "GOOD" hehhee.. kinda sad sia.. haha.. and ppl will not tell secret to me.. =X because they tot im not trustable gua.. i duno.. but im not that kind of like to reveal others secret to others.. im not... haha..

haha.. why ppl wanna like to treat me like this? =X mayb myself? haha.. must think of it.. =X i think is because.. im not a gud person gua.. hehe.. =)